Goyles Slumba Pawty

It has been years since I have had a legit slumber party! Last Friday some of the best girls got together and got pretty drunk.. or actually too drunk for words. Two bottles of red wine and almost a whole fifth of vodka.. I am not the least bit surprised of the following digital scrapbooking photos.. YIKES!

It started to turn into something real messy after the glass of wine at the Oswego Grill when we went to pick up Mar and watched a very exciting Blazer game.. then it was back to the apartment.. and that's where I can't even begin to explain the turn of events! 

Michael Jackson got us so good that somehow we decided we would dress like Tom Cruise in Risky Business and then gel Minker's hair like in Something About Mary but substituted lots of hairspray and gel for that which we women can't rightly supply.. 

Then somewhere after that the game Airplane started because m.bee convinced us she had the strongest legs for little me and B... it got dangerous but we did have some success! 

and then... "BOOM BOOM BOOM" a knock at the door... we had officially gotten the cops called on us. It felt like high school, except for the fact that I am 22.. I walk outside to greet officer "Nofuss" (after putting my jeans on of course) and it reeked of weed.. I was so confused...

B came out with me and the officer told us to quiet down, she called him by the wrong name, giggled and then he gave her a warning.. which was followed up by him telling us that he smelled like a skunk because he hit one with his car on the way over.. 

yeah.. you were definitely hitting some skunk on the way over officer.. wink wink.

But really the humor of it all was just too much!

Mink, B and I finished our night at Sharis at 5 in the morning shouting to the guys at the table next to ours (they were having a business meeting). totally appropriate. so much greasy food, some giggles, and then a warm bed that I could not pull myself out of in the morning. 

All in all it was a great success for my first slumber party since middle school, and totally legal might I add.. except for our excessive volume..

Pants off Dance Off

B getting annihilated 

so not drunk

Airplane Success!

and Airplane un-sucessful.. Guess I'm just better..

Mar is not pictured because she was the photographer apparently... Ah!

Thirty Two Degrees and Trashed

Hmmm yesterday... I have no idea what to say..


EXCEPT... I love my friends.


that's it. that's all.

The picture is worth more than a caption could ever try

Could you just never leave?

I'll pick your nose for ya

Day Drinkers

Do a Little Jig for meh!

BOOTS!

another Tactics Thrashin Thursday!

Haha Phillip!

stickkyy

Snow days

It is the perfect way to wake up! Now I'm really counting on my one class today to get ducked! So in hopes for this outcome.. hot totties, bacon and play time with the bloc!


Oh, and alcohol in wintery beverages, before noon, ON A SNOW DAY is totally justified and does not mean I have a problem.

You'll never get out.

I can't get out. You might get away with it, you might escape, but for me it's a risk.


He's says: Don't think. Its not the end. You're the first, you've got me, you've had me. With words, with the years, with the smiles from across the pub.


Never let them make you feel like that was it, never let them make you doubt. It's never ending. But, I'm sorry little one, you'll never find your way out.


Into the great unknown. I've gotten out.

thank you....

This doesn't mean anything to you, but it means something to me. So I shall toast myself (as I normally do when I blog), but really I toast to you, those who care to click the links, those who follow, those who are curious, those who stumbled by accident. Thank you, this is  the number of views I have gotten in such a little amount of time. Thank you. I really mean it. This is to you, for what you may be feeling, for what you may be writing, for what you may want to say but can't, for those of you who say it because you can, for those of you who don't want to read it, or don't give a damn... and for those that do, this is for you.


But, really, this blog is for me. I just like to share.

In Repose

So much convincing, it's really not that hard. You go on, and I'll be happier..


You'd like to convince me that I'd be better off.. But really you go on.. and I'll be happier!


I know you want this suffering to end, and so it is forgivable my friend. It's all to convince me that I'll be better off..


so, you go on..I'll be happier..


We all just need the comfort of knowing someone is there when it's all gone, and I've got the world, while you've got the room. 
I've got the smile, I've got the laugh, I've got the dance and I've got the better off..

Ticking

Everyday, Every Year, Every Birthday, Every Death, Every Storm, Every Waiting Line, Every Meal, Every Toast, Every Kiss, Every Test, Every Term, Every Shift, Every Shower, Every Good Day, Every Bad Day, Every Anniversary, And Even In The End.. It's All About Time..

We can try to avoid it or ignore it, but its still moving on with or without us. With the acceptance of it, we can reassure ourselves that it's only a matter of time.

This too shall pass.

Friendships grow, fail, and get hard but it's time that shows us what they are. We are the movers of time, we are what makes time relevant, so make the most of every minute, every kiss, every goodbye, every hello, because sometimes you don't get another chance.

Princess Pawty

The Facebook album ran out of room.. so I shall put the ones that didn't make the original cut, or just didn't upload on here.. so check it..

Oh Excite!

I woke up today and didn't have the courage or want to get out of bed.. and then, I opened my eyes and was aware of the warmth across my arms! The sun is back! It is still cold enough to snow at the mountain perhaps but it is sunny in Eugene and I am happy as can be! I am not happy as a clam, because clams can't possibly be happy.. considering they are stuck in a shell and smell really bad.. 

mmmm sweet sunshine, let me bring back my dresses and shoes that aren't so claustrophobic!

I'm ready for the days of dancing in the front lawn with cold beer, feeling the grass and pavement under my barefeet, and the swishing of my skirt against my knees! I am even ready for the itching of allergies and the uncomfortable wet bikini bottoms dirtied with sand from the river.. I have come down with spring fever...

OH EXCITE!

From a Bomb in a Birdcage

come here, oh, closer to touch, never enough,

let me climb under your skin, oh let me in.

from your lips a precipice 

I hang from every word

I want to keep you fed.

I want to pick you up, I don't care what time, I want to drive real fast to some place in town. I want to  stress you out, I want to make things hard. I want to take your hand, I want to leave this bar. I want to wake you up on a driving train that has led its tracks inside my brain. I want to take you home, I want to feel my age. I want to freak you out on a different stage. I want to show my teeth, I want to keep you fed. I want to get you drunk and let it go to your head. I want to be unique, I want to be your kind. I want to make you hate me and then change your mind. I want to wear a skirt. I want to make mistakes. I want to kill you first and then take your name. I want to tear you apart, I want to make your bed. I want to break your heart, I want to break your head.


So, I guess this means we can't be friends.

What I Wouldn't Do

Put myself down tonight, thought the reading would help, but it only creates the desire to write..

I know if he were here I'd sleep sound, he'd be awake and I'd be asleep, waking every so often to create the facade that I'm not asleep. There is no fooling a man that fools me. 

Oh what I wouldn't do if I could just ask you babe, to lace your hands around the small of my back, I would kiss you like a king, I'd be like a bride. But I would be everything that a bride isn't, because it would be me and I have no want of being a bride. If I wished for the future maybe I could fashion myself as a bride. But as you know, I wish for childhood so I fashion myself as a child. I can't sit still, I can't shut up, I can't stop wondering, I can't stop asking questions. Silence is never good for someone who is young at heart.

But if I had you here, I would sing. But I wouldn't sing for fear of breaking the mirror or crushing your eardrum. So, instead I would mouth the words to a slow song, watching you.

Coming out of this night daze, while I dream you here so I'm not alone.. Trying to make it so we are alright. But, then I remember.. outside of being an ignorant child, we've got shoes...

Quick kid quips, I'm so harsh and cynical. Your touch is stricken, cold and clinical. This is such a transformation to behold. I don't like this new, I want the old...

It's nothing you haven't said before, but it's how you say it now that has changed.. cold but sympathetic all the same.

It can all turn around in a matter of minutes..

Today was rough, lots of mixed emotions.. actually it was a lot of irreconcilable thoughts, pulling me every which way..
A few hours at the farm, finishing all my homework, watching Jeopardy with papa and talking over a warm meal that turned today into a very contenting night.
and then.. to top it off...


Nikki and I bought tickets to see Elton John on a whim!!! I need it, I need that heart-warming and skin tingling feeling of seeing a legend in concert.. 


In other words, I am quite done with today.. 
BRING ON TOMORROW!

not much of a princess

feeecckkk.. I have not a clue what kind of princess I will be.


I need a tutu so PLEASE if you are reading this and you have one could you help me!? bababababa not sure what to do for Friday.. either way things always get pulled together, it's just.. I fear I may have lost my "umph" for dressing in a costume this week..
it may have something to do with the feeling that I want to chop off all my hair.. or dye it black.. not both. just one or the other. 

I'm having one of those days where my mind can't focus on anything, and I feel like I am literally reaching out and grabbing it as it floats away like a lost balloon.. shiiza..


Getting out of here, I will now rely on my horse friends to tell me what is wrong with me today.


And then possibly I will rely on my English speaking friends to share a laugh or two over a beer or four tonight?? any takers??

Swimming and Drowning

And there I was in the passenger seat as you were driving me home, not a word was said for 40 minutes, from interstate-5 to the highway. 
I watch you inhale. You smell like cigarettes and lost hope. 
"Are you sure nothing is wrong?"
"Nothing is wrong."


If I could give you hope, if I had it here in my hands, in my cup holder, in my wallet, I'd give you all I have. But, then.. my love for you would become material.


The fields are dark, and the black sky looms overhead like a bruise covering the stars. It all felt dark, like the sky. Neither of us knew what we were thinking.


Slowly drowning, I lean my head against the window and wonder what is left.


I stammer to ask what you could be for me, as I feel it's too much to ask you.

Just Like a Woman

Nobody feels any pain tonight as I stand inside the rain
Ev'rybody knows that baby's got new clothes
But lately I see her ribbons and her bows
Have fallen from her curls

And she takes just like a woman
And she aches just like a woman
And she wakes just like a woman
Yeah but she breaks just like a little girl

It's was raining from the first and I was dying there of thirst
So I came in here and your long-time curse hurts
But what's worse is this pain in here
I can't stay in here ain't it clear that.. 

I just don't fit, yes, I believe it's time for us to quit
When we meet again, introduced as friends
Please don't let on that you knew me when
I was hungry and it was your world.

Everything has its limit.


But, baby it's true..
I dont want nobody, nobody..
Because, baby, it's you..

Samesies

At the farm for the night with Bry. Making a steak dinner feast with movies and wine. Love this cozy little farm house, especially when the wind and rain are beating down outside..

inspired boredom

Dandy Lion

You Could Say That I'm In Love..

A weekend of turmoil and happiness. So much thinking and stress, but in the end it is always my heart that is under arrest. 


In the living room watching the boys play Wii. Giggles tackled my stomach and smiles had their way with my face. It is hard to complain when you look at someone and you know that your happiness is embedded within them.


You are mine, and I am yours. There will always be the others that love you and can't let go, but they are stuck in a fools game.


No matter what, I'll remember you in the summer, in the sun, in the water, in the sweat and skin of hot negligently dressed days. I'll remember your laugh, and the way your eyes glanced to mine across the room. These things to be remembered are things that make the present worth having, and worth fighting for. 


You complete my laugh, because you are the beginning of what makes me giggle. 


Friends, in the beginning and till the end can no longer hide.


I hope you don't mind that I've put down in words, how wonderful life is, now that you're in the world.

sun shadows

in the sun shadows there are more than five fingers, I give me 6 or 7.


there is nothing in the general, at least not specific.


a pool shark, a bar drunk, a drunk bar, an old song, a sour pick up line, a decline, a way home, a bed.


what is it when the something is nothing, and the nothing is something?

a night sky on Egypt with its Pyramids perfectly aligned, we can all see the belt. the same world, just hundreds of miles away.


a microcosm. 

Kitty corner